winds of change

with you in my heart always,
Immortal and persistent you've become,
wicked the world seems,
surviving on my bloods of pain.

Education ruined me,
Society left me nowhere.
Realizations flashing me the pain of death
Again and again and again and again and again persistently......................

Where are you my beloved ?
Why all of a sudden?
Why the sky is not blue anymore ?
  sky so red, I exhale pain, I inhale memories.....
Why the wind I ingest is made up of memories?
Why God is so ruthless?
Why can't anyone help me?
Why can't I yell my pain ?
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If not you then  who will????????
Why is there so much hopes lingering and hovering over my blurred vision?
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If not you then who will?????????