i wish

.......
......well
......well
.......

i was alone
you were accompanied

i was not at home

you were surrounded by best people.
i was helpless
you didn't care at all
or may be you did
but that wasn't enough
i stood for you in the worst of my times
i backed you in all the bittersweet phases of your life
you abandoned me when
i needed you in subtlest of ways

you surrendered when

it was your time to express...

i am happy for your success 

but i am sad for myself...

for all these years 

the dreams i built 

shattered into pieces 

i wish 

  i don't lose the faith in humanity 

  i don't lose faith in myself 

  i start living like nothing matters 

  i start acting like it never was true 

  i wish i never think of you all the time

  i wish i could just hibernate for days, for years..

i just wish and why all the wishes are limited to wishes 

i wish a miracle happens 

i wish that i do not  wish anything at all........